Just Another Wednesday

As we step into 2025, I can’t help but look back at the journey I’ve been on with my disabilities and disorders. There were moments when it felt like I was falling behind.. whether it was not being able to keep up with certain goals or simply not feeling my best. But as the year went on, I realized something important: it’s okay not to accomplish everything. Not meeting all of last year’s goals doesn’t mean I’ve failed or that I’m behind. Life with a disability is unpredictable, and we all have our own pace. I’ve learned that growth isn’t just about ticking boxes; it’s about finding peace with where I am right now, no matter how far or near I feel to where I want to be.

I've really taken on board that i cant do everything i want to do right there and then. i know i have to pace, change and adapt things to get where i want and need to be.. but sometimes its not just me that's got to do it.. i need help, whether its in the form of a mobility aid or another human being. So this is year is all about doing, achieving, seeing and experiencing what i can.. when i can.

I'm also focusing less on what I should do and more on what feels right for me. While I still have dreams and aspirations, I’m choosing to set intentions that don’t carry the weight of external expectations. It’s about being kind to myself.. whether I’m advancing in big ways or taking smaller, quieter steps. The goal isn’t to do more, but to live more authentically. I want to embrace what truly brings me joy, whether that’s writing, creating, or simply taking time to rest and recharge. 2025 isn’t about pressure; it’s about honouring what feels good for me and doing things because they make me happy, not because they look good on paper.

I'm fed up of having to live my life a certain way, or be expected to look a certain way because I'm ill and disabled. Having to post certain content on social media just to be noticed. Having to not use mobility aids coz other people are uncomfortable with it.

Naaa.. stuff that!!

Id rather live my life for me, how I'm comfortable and happy then living to conform to peoples stereotypes.

Looking ahead, I’m excited about the possibilities but also focused on making sure that whatever I do, I’m doing it for me.

This year, I plan to create content that reflects the real, unfiltered experience of living with a disability or a whole encyclopedia of them.. content that’s not about perfection, but about sharing the messy, beautiful truth of it all. I’ll be highlighting stories of resilience, offering tools and resources that support wellness, and creating a community where everyone feels heard and valued.

But most importantly, I want this space to be one where we can all take the pressure off and just be. A space where you can just read and forget about what's troubling or stressing you out.. if only for a few minutes!

So just remember..

It’s okay to have big goals or small ones, but as long as you’re doing it for yourself, that’s what really matters.

I decided for this year i wouldn't make any new resolutions, achievements or goals to complete by a certain date, what's the point. its just putting unneeded pressure and stress on me when i don't need anymore stress.

I'm guna wing it where i have to, pretend that i knew what i was doing in others.. and just completely deny anything else.. hahaha

But on a serious note. I spent the last few days of 2023 and early 2024 making a list of goals and things i needed to achieve.. as January and February went and flew by, then March and April did the exact same but each month i was piling on more things i had to do. Things I didn't achieve in January were added on to February. The things I didn't do then was put on March.. April came, the same happened.. then May came.. And it all came crashing down onto me! 

That was a massive whoopsie. All to fit into those little neat stereotypical boxes.

So there is literally no planning. well only for the things that actually need it. but everything else.. I'm being spontaneous and im winging it..

And making sure i laugh at every opportunity.

The only thing I'm promising myself and actually doing this year..

Seeing friends and my chosen family. I don't know when.. and I certainly haven't planned any trips as of yet.. but when I do.. it's all about making memories. 

The only thing I truely want to do this year is make every single day memorable! Whether that's laughing through the pain, writing down how I feel so I can look back on it next year or the year after, or whether it's laying on my sofa wrapped up in my duvet.. writing my blogs. 

And I know some days are going to be hard, tough, and probably push me to breaking point. But I know you need to have some bad days, those days where you cry and sob and get angry. These days are the days I release all the unneeded and unwanted negative energy, stress and pressure! These are good days too if you actually think about it.. more room for all that funny stuffs! Haha.. So don't ever feel bad, guilty or shite for having a bad day.. it's normal and we're all human! 

But regardless of my health, my mobility, and my bad days of course.. this year, 2025..

This will be a year I look back on and see how much I've grown, lived and experienced! I may be winging it, living spontaneously as each day comes and goes.. but I can promise, it's going to be one heck of a ride and I honestly can not wait to share it with you! 

Life has a way of throwing spanner's in when we least expect it. It also brings us people, things ans situations we didn't plan for.. sometimes bad, but the majority.. a blessing in disguise at the right time! Use the bad to lift you up and make yourself stronger.. and the good, well make sure you live it like it's your last day!

I truely hope this year is a good one for you. I hope it's a calmer, kinder and happier one for you. And I'm sending you all the love, support and positive vibes for whatever you have planned for 2025!